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Someone is serious

Posted by Anupam Jha on June 2, 2009

Please do it! I got stuck,that moment,my inner voice shaken my mind,you know i got shuddering,like the whole world attacked on Bhutan including Taliban and i was like-Chill,this is just a statement, why i m so concerned about such plain phrase like “please do it”.But then this is the beauty of being alone when you talk with your own self.And i do this often.Listening myself.

Some time back i was reading a Bestseller,though during the last 4-5 years i have nt been frequent with books.Though i love reading a lot anything…from an autobiography to a classic Mario Puzo to anything.I just enjoy.I m nt kind of who would read and then would love to make plans to follow those heavy words,ferocious assumptions, for me those stuff makes me what i donot want to b,so i just read it.Henceforth,while reading that, i guess after ending the two chapters in a row, i stretched my left arm for a bislery bottle to bottle my mind what was sounding quite heavy due to the kind of stuff the author had stuffed in those first two chapters.I guess some of you have been through such rocky mental state,when you study something, and you dont undertsand, you know how heavy you feel,and who knows better than me.i tell you no one knows.Those digital electronics! Poor IQ sucks man.

But now the crux of the climax, as i have mentioned above,i dnt get affected by what i read in the books.So nothing shattered me in the first two chapters, except that simple phrase-”please do it”.Then trust me,i wanted to smash a coconut on Author’s head, i wished, he would b alive in front me that moment for leaving me in such a puzzled situation.But then some wishes remain a wish only.You never fulfil it, like i missed proposing my 9th standard lady class teacher.

The author reached to “please do it” after inserting enough examples about great folks,how someone without being much qualified wrote an all time great bestseller(charles dickens) how kinght brothers started their mission from no where and many such examples you know what give you peace of mind.Doing the stuff you enjoy and then making enough money to lead a happy of course married life forever.

So what that statement said-Dont look left right,dont get fused from advices.Now point to b noted-i read that book 4 years back.may b that quote has some rocking, brilliant meanings may b it said something what i dint fathom,i know,may b i wont b able to fathom ever,may b my maid Anju Ji(maid ko bhi respect karo) would b able to tell me 100 more hidden sincere things about “please do it” what i seriously dislike to know.But what i understood and thought best for me is to crunch the small small bacterias running inside my mind,unfortunately only i m responsible for allowing them to flourish and to stop me whenver i wish to do something offbeat,so by crunching those worms of my mind, in the last 3-4 years….God it took so long…slow guy! I have learnt to follow what my “heart” says not mind.Thanks to this realisation.

My heart says-Anupam you wanna sit around split AC no office no Boss no deadlines, no pressure.You wanna b happy earning a little but with peace of mind.You wanna b happy “writing” articles books and making paltry income….right Anupam? And i say to my heart yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…..i want.Then heart says- but dude you have everything just pep up your zest,throw the shackles of laziness, follow what i say,burn the years old wooden sticks of confusion,and just follow what i say.And heart knows what i want.

Enough serious man! Shit. Light is gone….but my heart says write more post is incomplete buddy….hey heart…dnt b so smart bring light please ya i want to write.Following you heart…dnt worry…!

PS: have a great 40th marriage anniversary to both of you.papa n mummy!

On the juke box:abb kya sikayat karen hum,kis ko kahe bewafa…..saanso ka kya hai pata:)

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